Life in de past weeks or months..

It had been sometime since i last open my blog and someone actually ask me to update it.. i nvr expect anyone to read my blog as it is for me to release my stress.

:ife has been quite busy after my finals exam.. this is my finals semester in college as next yr i will be going for internship.. guess whut? i am going to kl hilton.. i nvr expected tat and tot i would end up in langkawi.. i hope everything goes well no matter where am i goin.. do u think tat i will miss my college frenz? theres ups and down in life.. at a time i live a miserable life in college.. it was the tough for me.. i could not handle the pressure till i bite myself.. its it not only mentally abuse but physically.

The last semester was quite dry and bored.. except for the beverages class.. getting drunk! it was quite cool getting to try out different type of alcoholic beverages. my lecturer was cool as well.

i quited my job at cc during sept. and life turned down.. getting lazy to go out, no more night life.. tryin to be good gurl staying at home and more arguement with parent.. getting annoyed and yea.. that life for de past 3months..

But it has changed since Finals OVER!! yahooo~~ goin mad and crazy.. not being home every single day till i cant diffrenciate day and night, i dont even know the date anymore.. haha.. i finish my finals on 26th nov, wed.. that nite i went for a farewell dinner with my college frenz.. was stuck in the jam for an hour before i reach Yuen steamboat at sunway.. oni half of the class turned up which hav at least 40 ppl.. can u imagine how big is my class and it is very hard for us to communicate sometime as all of us hav different group of friends in class... i didnt went home after the dinner.. calling others frenz to meet up and half drinkin session.. can u imagine goin to yum cha till 5am in the mornin.. haha. i couldnt believe i reli did stupid things.. since i dont want to go home and my fren couldnt sleep.. sleeping at 6am and getting annoyed with a call at 8am it was soo annoyin!!! till i shut down my phone.. i nvr shut down for hp for no reason..

On the following day which is 27th nov. i went to sunway again for lunch then walk around erm.. not knowing whut to do then theres another fren of mine who doesnt wan to go home again.. haha.. end up i hav to company her.. went atria.. it was weird.. theres ntg to do there.. and i went home early b4 dinner time..

on 28th nov, mum woke me up early in de mornin and ask me drove her to 1u.. i stole de car out without my dad knowlegde.. i tot he would be angry when he found out.. but he did not.. haha.. lucky i did not meet any accident.. de previous time i drove with my dad around i almost bang a uncle on de road.. haha.. but mum said it was not my fault.. =p at nite i went to murni for my fren bday.. my dad he dont wan to send me there, he said.. since u soo like to go out, take the TEKSI.. wtf?! it was raining.. sigh.. i was soo angry tat i must go out tat day.. haha.. lucky my fren came to pick me up around 8pm.. after mamak we went movie~~ 12am.. bolt.. tired and sleepy... came bak around 2am.. another fren ask to go yum cha.. but my fren tat drove me home doesnt let.. he was scolding me alwiz goin home late, damn! worst den my dad.. haha.. he was my zi mui.. dey insist to send me home.. so no yum cha session tat nite..

on 29th nov.. sat mornin.. i went to midvally shoppin wit my college frenz... in the afternoon, i meet up wit my cousin and aunty went uptown and dinner @ 1u.. following day i drove to KL.. haha.. shock man.. aunt kinda freak out of my driving skills.. she keep making noise. almost want to send her home.. haha.. went kajang after tat.. cousin meeting up wit her fren while me n my aunt were rotting there, whut a boring place!!! after tat we went to midvally again for dinner and yea cousin went facial... sigh... i drove around de car park tat time cuz my cousin were teaching me and my aunt does not wan to sit my car, she was soo scared.. my cousin ask her to close her eyes and she keep praying.. i feel soo frustrated.. i told her why u soo scared.. i oso not scared.. omg!!! i wanted to throw her off de car.. JKJK.. reli pist off at tat moment!! sigh... i guess she will nvr sit my car anymore.. not in de comin 2-3years.. >.<"

monday, on de 1st december.. i went to work.. yea WORK! data entry @ unisys... it was the most BORING job on earth.. dont wan to mention anymore edi. i dont feel like goin bak there anymore.. but mum was like go 1 day den dont wan go whut de hell man. i was like whut ever.. fine!! least i dont work everyday!!! n tat nite i went dinner.. erm yea movie after tat.. 12am movie again.. sigh.. sleepyness...

To be continue.. ..

Someone true in life

All these years as day goes by, i thought i don't have someone true by my side.. It's seems soo hard to find someone who i really can trust and be with me when i needed. BUT till today when i have problems, i only realise there's still peoples who cares for me and one of them is you. thank you for being there for me, my dear... Even though i don't know you well or long but we somehow clicked when the first time we met. Was happy spending time with you, though it's short but i know in the coming days we could spend more time together doing crazy things. LOL.. Time doesnt really matter for us as i can say.. Cause even a year has past without contacting each other but we still can come out and start doing crazy thing which i never will do with any other people in my life.. i dont think there would be a person as crazy as you.. maybe when only both of us get together this things would happen.. haha.. And it's very suprising that you are there for me at the time i really needed someone for comfort.. thanks babe and you will always be part of my life. Just wanted to take this opportunity thank you..

Past (happy that it is over) and future (waiting for me to find out)..

I was going through a hard time in the past weeks , with my life, exam, family and friends. i could not cope with what's happening in my life as it strike as fast as a lightning.. Everything seems to be unpredictable. At first i could not handle and accept things that happen faster than i can think and decide but it is over as now i found out there's better things in life. There's give and take as i can say. After rain there's always sun light behind it, and we just have to wait for the time to come that's all. =)

Life couldn't be better than this after i make up my mind. I will stay strong my dear as i know you guys would stay by my side as i walk through in life.. I have my aims and goals which nothing cant push me down.. So don't worry about me..

To my dearest zi mui! Chin Tan

Just want to let u knw that i reli care for you. I would like to know how are you doin there. So do keep me update with your life! I guess right now this is the only way that i could keep in touch with you.. you are a total bitch man! How could u treat me like this.. I didnt know that i really miss you that much till i actually cried after reading your blog. Thank god that least you are doing something in your life which let me keep track with you. If not i really think you have already dissapear in my life. i really couldnt control my feelings towards you which makes me sound like a lesbian now! Do you know that! TAN ZI CHIN!!! i really wana tell you that I MISS YOU MY DEAR, zi mui! you can say, that you are the one and only one which never keep in touch with us! Even when u were in Malaysia, i could hardly contact and meet up wit u.. AND NOW! u plan to go HONG KONG.. you always give me lots of shock and suprises.. I really do feel like a lesbian everytime sending you message.. do you know that?? you didnt even contact me. alwiz soo busy.. even though everyone is busy with their own life but i do hope to keep in touch wit u and hope you are doing well, where ever u go and whutever you do.. PLEASE Do take care of yourself and dont let anyone worry about you, specially your parents.. and i wana tell u this.. no matter where u go.. i would like to knw how you doing? do inform me..

I know there's time we have to let goes of things when the time comes.. and i hope the best for you, my dear zi mui.. Do what ever you think is right and i will always be there to support you, as my dear zi mui. But i do hope tat you could contact me whenever you are free I would try to meet up with you cause i really miss your presence. It has been quite sometime since i last talked to u.. but i know the days would come.. No matter how busy i am i would hope to spend some time wit u my dear.. miss u! take care and all the best!!

First time

This is almost the end of semester 2.. practical class in service and kitchen.. but last 2weeks was my very FIRST time, touching roar chicken.. haha.. serious shit! i was avoiding all this while.. trying not to touch all this disguisting things.. i dare not touch roar meat, never ever try.. i knew i would need to face it 1 day.. so i try to force myself to do it, even since b4 i started this course.. i know my attitude.. if no one force me, i would nvr ever do it.. i was soo worry about this.. i dont know why. maybe i'm kinda weird. haha.. i can tell u that ever since i started my second sem. i try to avoid and only do the salad, soup, dessert... whutever i will do.. as long not touching those disgusting roar , yucky meat.. HAHA... but i still faced it and i was happy with it.. i wasnt that bad lar... anyhow i know i would need to do it in the future.. haha.. its jz that matter of time.. ^^

Got the wrong person!

Today after service class i went to 1U with my service uniform(waitress) to meet up with my mum. We went to the supermarket to get something. I was standing by the side of a cashier counter, while waiting for my mum to pay. Suddenly a uncle called from my back.. He said, excuse me, Miss.. may i ask.... ... MY FIRST WORD TO HIM... SORRY I DONT WORK HERE!!! i was standing at Beer display, it was a promo. for heineken beer.. Do i look like a ''BEER GIRL'' (say in cantonese) ??? my mum was laughing at me.. this was not the first time i get into this kinda of situation. there was one time i was wearing my college uniform with a blue blazer @sinma.. i was waiting for friends while they shop for things at that particular shop and out of a sudden, there's a lady on wheel chair calling me.. i was wondering why.. she said miss can u help me clip this on my hair for me.. i STONE for a moment.. i dont know how can i help her.. i was kind of lost and blur that time.. i was like.. errr... sorry.. i dont work here.. can u imagine those situation? it was kind of embrassing.. i was going for shopping and people misunderstood me as a worker there.. i went to purchase thing and ask for information at certain counter and there's people asking me.. where do u work? u having ur break now?? i told dem i was a student and i just finish my class, the promoter was kinda OPPS... .. i think i should not go out with my uniform specially to shopping centre.. X_x and the worst part is going out for lunch.. people would look at me and my friends in a weird way. In those people eyes i sense the thinking of 'whuts wrongs with those ppl wearing blazer comin to all this place, exp: mamak stall is the worst place to get into..

Scholarship

As days goes by, i dont know iszit that i'm thinking negative or what but i felt that my life is really getting worst day by day. Few months ago, i went to apply for merit scholarship in my college. I was called for interview by the bursary people and i went for it. Now... the result has finally came out. It's says in the letter.... ... [ We appreciate your application on the above scholarship and REGRET to inform you that your application is UNSUCCESSFUL. However, we encourage you to work harder and try again in the coming semester. We hope to see you continueing to strive for high academic performance as a student. Tq. ]. Wtf man?! When i receive this letter and what i heard from people that got the scholarship i was damn pist off.. not that i was angry that i didnt get this scholarship. It's that i felt i was cheated. It's really a waste of time for me to go for the interview because they just ask me a few stupid questions while i have to wait for damn long to get in the interview. I heard from a senior which also went for the same interview as me.. he was awarded and get 30% deduction on the next semester fees BUT he complained about it bacause come of friends of his got 40%.. anyway, that was not the main point. It's because the next semester he would be going for training and the scholarship could not be use, transfer to other people or cash. So it's meaningless though he got the scholarship. According to him, if he really want to get full use of the scholarship, he would need to continue his studies after training which is Degree.. In conclusion what i wanted to say is that the college is very brilliant. They did not give to the right person at the right time. Maybe that's the main point here.. DISSAPOINTED!